500 Days

silhouette of people talking“You’re right, after subtracting the time we spend keeping ourselves alive, eating and sleeping, there is very little time left for actually doing something important; something worthwhile.”

“Yes and don’t forget the time we spend working to pay for the food we eat and a place to sleep.”

“Oh that’s right and if you add in the time we spend shopping, cooking and cleaning…”

“… making the bed, changing the sheets, brushing our teeth, going to the bathroom, …”

“OK, when you add all of that time up; all of the hours we spend just keeping ourselves rested and fed, what are you left with?”

“Hold up, we need to add in our pastimes. You know, watching TV, reading, stuff we do to decompress, relax, recover.”

“That’s true but those things aren’t really living, contributing – they are just ways we pass time – hence the term – pastimes.”

“Good point – so when you really get down to it – how much time do we spend, in our whole lives – not eating, sleeping or passing time – you know – doing something important, lasting?”

“Well I used to think Lance Armstrong was a good role model. He dedicated a lot of time towards something that seemed important; winning the Tour de France, and working for people with cancer. But now look at all that effort, arguably gone to waste. His titles were all taken away and the people associated with his foundation are left questioning the worth of all their efforts.”

“True, now add up all the time he has to spend repairing all of that damage.”

“I guess if you’re not honest; if you’re not honorable – you are spending your time hurting and destroying rather than contributing and helping.”

“Yes and the newspapers and history books are littered with these infamous people, Richard Nixon and Bernie Madoff.”

“OK, but if we ARE honest, and honorable – how much time do we have – I mean after you subtract our biological duties and pastimes? How many minutes each day are left?”

“Well, I can tell you that some days are so busy, so hectic – that I have NO time for doing something worthwhile. I’m just surviving man!”

“Amen to that! So how many days a week? And on those days – how many minutes do we dedicate to something other than tending to our biological needs and pastimes?”

“That is the question, isn’t it. Let’s just say, optimistically, we spent an hour or so every other day, working honestly, selflessly on something worthwhile; something important. Not that I am, but that would respectable amount of time. Right?”

“Well let’s see, on average we live sixty, seventy years of which fifteen to twenty are spent being a baby, or a kid…”

“… or convalescing or ill? Let’s say we have forty or fifty good years? Split the difference forty five?”

“Ok that’s about 12,000 hours if you do the math. That’s a lot of time – right?”

“All together – if we spent forty five good years, every other day, spending a good hour and a half working on something important, something selfless and honorable, not eating or sleeping related or passing time – then yeah – 12,000 hours is a lot of time. That’s about 500 days.”

“Wait – that’s only one full year and up to May of the following year. “

“Wow – that’s it huh? One year and then to May of the next – not eating, sleeping, tending to eating and sleeping or passing time?”

“Scary!”

“And just think – we spent the last fifteen minutes talking about this – instead of doing something important.”

“Yeah – and now I’m hungry – let’s get something to eat.”

“Sounds good – let’s do that – then I have to get to the grocery store.”

“Me too, I’ll join you. And why don’t you come over for dinner”

“Ok – but I have to catch American Idol tonight. You?”

“Wouldn’t miss it.”

“Great let’s go.”

Posted in Essay, Humor, Philosophy | Leave a comment

Pain! Bad Habits! Go to your rooms!

coffeeIn a previous post, I said that Now is the best drug. Since I brought up the subject of drugs – in that post – let me expand on the topic in this one.

Let me start by saying that I am not against all drugs. Some of my favorite activities involve them – reading the paper with my morning coffee (image provided), sharing a meal with family and friends, snorting a line with my biker buddies (just kidding!). No, but seriously – a drug is a chemical (yes coffee and food are drugs) used to alter our mental state and humans have put them to good-use and ab-use forever.

While I’m not against drugs per se – I do believe that we need to be VERY VERY careful and mindful about how we connect habits to mood. Let me repeat that:

Be very very careful about connecting habits to mood!

The habit-mood connection is the most powerful, most dangerous phenomenon we humans will ever encounter. The habit-mood system underpins our evolutionary survival process. And messing around with it is like playing with live unpinned grenades. It’s not only dangerous to us – it’s dangerous and harmful to everyone near us.

This is why I am very careful and mindful about connecting habits to mood. Let’s compare these two habit-mood connections: (1) Having a cup of coffee while reading the newspaper and (2) having a beer at the end of a stressful day. While both of these activities seem harmless enough – both of them should be examined. The morning-caffeine connection is a ritual. The stress-alcohol connection is something altogether different. It is a pain relief mechanism. While I am careful with when and how I consume caffeine – I am comfortable with having a cup of joe in the morning. On the other hand – because the stress-alcohol connection is a pain reduction activity that involves a potentially dangerous habit – I do not do it – period. In fact, whenever I feel pain I TRY to follow this process:

  1. First I focus on the pain. What is it? Why do I have it? Where did it come from? Pain can be a good thing. Should I NOT try to escape it? Should I change my ways so that I can avoid it in the future?
  2. Next – if I conclude that pain reduction is required – I consider healthful solutions. Should I get some exercise? Read a book? Talk to someone?

I do everything in my power to keep pain away from bad habits. I know that if pain even wanders into the same room as a bad habit – the human brain gets to work planning the wedding. That’s what the brain does best! It’s wired into our survival source code. In fact – drug addiction can get to the point where basic survival (eating, drinking, sleeping) is superseded by the desire to take the drug! Watch out – unpinned grenade juggling ahead.

Don’t get me wrong – I have plenty of bad habits and plenty of pain – I just strongly believe it’s best to keep them locked away in separate rooms. Pain! Bad Habits! Go to your rooms and stay there!

Posted in Essay, Health, Philosophy, Science | Leave a comment

Truth? (final post)

dancing-2It all began with this question:

If there is only Truth – not good or evil – then What is Truth?

By tracking truth back to its source we noticed that:

Truth peaks at Now

Finally by looking closer and closer at Truth we came to this conclusion:

There is one and only one Truth and the only place where we can experience and affect Truth is Now.

This is an extremely important property of Truth. Truth can be accessed only through this special portal called Now. I have just one more result I would like to share:

Truth is our only source of Good, so getting closer to Now is Good.

I realize I already said that there is no good or evil. But I also observed that deep down, there does seem to be an ultimate truth. An ultimate source of good, a warmth and light that we rationalize as our god. And if this is correct, the closer we get to this ultimate truth, the happier, more peaceful, more joyful we become. And since Truth peaks at Now – getting closer to Now brings us closer to this ultimate truth. Here are my observations regarding this fact:

  • Road Trips are fun. This is a strange observation that I made on a recent road trip with my family and now I think I understand it. We spent the better part of four hours in the car and I noticed something strange. Each of us seemed happy. I thought to myself, what if we spent the same four hours in the same car – while the car sat in the garage – would we still be happy? Obviously not. We probably couldn’t spend ten minutes together in a parked car without going bananas. What’s the difference? I believe that travel brings us closer to now. Einstein showed this to be true mathematically – as we increase our velocity – time slows down. Also, when we travel, the scenery is continuously changing and in order to observe it we have to be in the moment.
  • Reading and Writing is satisfying. When we read, even though we are transported to another world, we have to be present. The act of interpreting symbols on a page requires actively taking in and translating new information. Writing (as I am doing now) requires even more effort. We are creating the words and thoughts actively. We have to be in the moment to read and write.
  • Competing is Exhilarating. When we compete in sports or games we must be present and in the moment.
  • Dancing is joyful (image provided). When people are dancing they are happy. They smile. They laugh. I don’t think they even know why. If you ask them they will say it’s because they like to dance. But that is not a reason – it’s an observation. I believe dancing makes us happy because it requires us to be in the moment. In order to dance, we have to follow the beat of the music. We have to focus on Now. Dancing brings us very very close to Now. And the closer we get – the happier we get. Next time you see people dancing – notice how happy they are. There is definitely something good there.
  • Art comes from Now. Artists have been muse driven from the beginning of human civilization. Art seems to be our interpretation of truth and beauty which – as this post series proposes – comes through to us from now. This is another reason dancing is joyful – music is probably our interpretation of what lies on the other side of that portal.
  • Being together is joyful. When we pay attention to each other, focus on each other, we are happy. Wow – this is another reason dancing is joyful – I gotta dance more! Again the reason is because in order to communicate we need to be in the moment. Individually we are isolated, separate beings. Alone, we can escape from the moment but in order to really be with someone else – we have to be in the moment. We have to communicate with and react to another separate being. The more we focus on each other – the happier we get. There is something good there.
  • Worry and Regret are Harmful. As we move away from Now we not only seem to be less happy – we can even damage our health. Worry moves us into the future. There is anxiety and fear associated with wandering away from Now. Regret is also detrimental to our health and reduces our sadness. When we dwell on the past we seem to be less happy. Even remembering good times can make us sad. Moving away from the portal seems to be a bad thing.
  • Now is the best drug. My thoughts on drugs will require its own post – but in a nutshell – everything we put into our bloodstream that affects our dopamine release process is a drug and this includes food – so I’m not against drugs per se – I am just careful about connecting habits to feelings. I believe getting close to now, staying in the moment can help in this regard. Here is one example. When I can’t sleep I have found that counting sheep activities help because it move me into the present. It makes sense, relaxation techniques, reading, and staring into the starry night are all activities that snuggle us up to now. When we wander from there in regret and worry – sleep is out of reach. Now is better than Ambien – that’s for sure!
  • Good Deeds Wilt as they move away from Now. Finally – I have noticed this strange phenomenon – and now I think I understand it. Good deeds are only good when they are fresh. When we look back at good deeds or tell someone about a good deed we performed – it stales. It can even turn into a bad thing because we seem to be bragging about it. Planning to do good deeds can also be strangely negative. We even call these people do gooders or goodie two shoes. The same good deed removed from Now seems to wilt. Strange but in light of our results – it makes sense.

I feel I have a new understanding of good and evil and truth. I am glad that I took this journey. I hope you are too. I am going to spend as much time as possible in the now and I am going to try not to wander away from now. No worries. No regrets. Less planning. More doing. More dancing. Also, I will look for inspiration there. I will try not to plan good deeds – I will just try to be more aware of how I can help out when the moment presents itself. I may even look for my god there. I do know that there is something warm and bright there – and I want to be near it.

The end.

Posted in Cosmology, Essay, Philosophy, Physics, Science, Theology | Leave a comment

Truth? (part 9)

Van-Gogh-Wheat-Field-with-CrowsPRELUDE: I know that talking about hidden dimensions sounds loony, but it is not – and here is why. First of all the physics community that studies String Theory believes extra dimensions exist. Also, this concept is not meant to be mystic. We know dimensions exist in the form of up, down and side to side. This is just an additional, imperceptible dimension in the same family as the dimensions we already experience. That is all. OK – here we go.

In this series of Truth Posts we tracked the concept of truth back to its origin. I have done an unwritten/mental deep dive into how this is happening and have come to some conclusions that are too elaborate for a post. If I get time I will publish these results but suffice it to say that our four-dimensional world blooms from a dimension we cannot perceive called the Event Source. Think of the Event Source is the ultimate Truth, what is actually happening.

I’ve also determined that (contrary to my previous idea) the Event Source does not exist in the quantum state. The quantum state is just the place where our vision gets blurred as we track reality back to its origin. This is the place where our dimensions of length and time break down. It’s similar to how you cannot detect spatial dimensions at the edge of the horizon. As you look at a landscape you can see length, width and height. However the further up you look towards the horizon, these dimensions diminish to a point where they are imperceptible and meaningless. Notice how the path looses dimension and eventually disappears in Van Gogh’s painting Wheat Field with Crows (image provided). [By the way - here is a link to my Van Gogh app on iTunes]

Heisenberg claims that the path comes into existence only when we observe it. I propose that this is not entirely accurate – and ultimately misleading. The path exists – it just exists in a form we cannot perceive. It exists in a dimension, imperceptible to us (see I told you that the concept of an imperceptible dimension is not loony – it’s right there in Van Gogh’s painting. Oh – wait – Van Gogh had mental problems – never mind). I would rewrite Heisenberg’s statement this way:

The path exists – it just comes into our awareness when we are able to observe it.

Also – as we already discussed – the event source is not reachable from here. There is a gap between our reality and the Event Source. Fortunately, I have determined that while we can not dimensionally cross the gap – we can experience and manipulate what’s on the other side. The only requirement is that we must be in a very special place to do this – a place we call Now. I can go very deep into this concept but lets leave it at this – from the vantage point of Now (and only that vantage point) we can and do affect reality. We have free will. The future is not predetermined and there are not multiple futures. There is just one reality and we interact with it, determine it, control it. This is why Truth peaks at Now and this is why Now is a special place. This is the ultimate conclusion I will propose in this entire series.

There is one and only one Truth and the only place where we can experience and affect Truth is Now.

In the next post I will wrap the journey up. To be continued, one more time…

Posted in Essay, Philosophy, Physics, Poem, Science, Theology | 3 Comments

Truth? (part 8)

Animal TrackingIn the previous post I asked:

How do events traverse a layer of quantum uncertainty and arrive, intact, at our five senses?

After allowing the question to incubate in my head for a couple of days (while skiing) here is what I propose:

The source of any event we perceive in three dimensions of space and one dimension of time first exists in an imperceptible form.

OK, here it is in a nutshell:

Everything you see around you existed prior to the point you think of as Now. It existed in an imperceptible form. Even though Truth peaks at Now – it came from a higher place.

Pause:

A higher place? It’s interesting how some of these results echo religious concepts.

Continue:

Everything you see around you existed before Now in a different dimension. It existed in an imperceptible state. But just because it was imperceptible doesn’t mean it didn’t exists. Once I came to this result I stopped and thought about it for a while. I recommend you try this too. When you look at the world around you – think about the idea that life is playing out in a different dimension – imperceptible to your five senses.

OK – so how does this correlate to our JFK assassination analogy? As you get closer and closer in terms of space and time to the assassination event you reach a point where quantum physics takes over. We seemed to get lost at the quantum level because matter is disordered at this level. It seems to be a wave, then a particle. When you pin down its location you can’t determine its momentum. Fortunately – we solved the problem by concluding that information about the second shooter DOES exist in a different dimension. The concept of length and time does not exist in this dimension. The trick is that it exists in a state imperceptible to our five senses. Just because we can’t see it doesn’t mean it isn’t there. This is why the Denver Airport roof is such a good visual analogy.

The roof at the Denver Airport allows us to visualize the event prior to the point we perceive as now – the physical top of the fabric tent. Remember – the tent tops appear to be cut off by an imaginary plane. But now we know that while we cannot see the tent tops – they DO in fact exist. When you look at the Denver Airport roof you can almost see the tent tops – right? The roof also allows you to visualize how the concept of time is created. Each peak is a moment in time. When these moments emerge (top down) from this initial, imperceptible dimension they can be experienced one peak at a time. Just as we experience reality – one moment at a time. The Denver Airport roof is a metaphor the creation of reality! As far as I am concerned – this is the best roof in the world.

Let me end with this analogy. If an observed event was represented by the trail of an animal we were tracking (image provided). Would we conclude that the animal ceased to exist prior to a point that we lost its trail? No, of course not. Just because the trail stops being detectable by our five senses doesn’t mean the animal ceased to exist prior to that point.

To be continued…

Posted in Cosmology, Essay, Philosophy, Physics, Poem, Science, Theology | Leave a comment

Truth? (part 7)

truthFlash of Truth (a poem by Sal)

Each peak is a moment in time,
and while truth flashes at the mountaintop,
concealed by the mist of uncertainty,
somehow,
down here,
we feel its warmth,
in our hearts.

This is the mystery of Truth as I have come to see it over the last six posts (15 minutes at a time). And even if I return from this voyage empty-handed, at least I have this lovely poem. So this is the question:

How do events traverse a layer of quantum uncertainty and arrive, intact, at our five senses?

I am incubating an as-of-yet unwritten proposal that I will offer in my next post. To be continued…

Posted in Cosmology, Essay, Philosophy, Physics, Poem, Science, Theology | 1 Comment

Truth? (part 6)

Dever Airport Fabric Roof (Warning: Imagination required ahead.)

We concluded in earlier posts that while we know Truth and Reality meet at Now – the nature of this intersection is unclear. Is it discrete or continuous? How does the actual event (Truth) get converted into our perception of that event (Reality)? Well – one way to visualize this Truth-Reality intersection is by studying the fabric roof at the Denver International Airport (image provided).

If you look closely at the picture you will notice that the tent tops are sliced off. The decapitation of these peaks represents our inability to directly observe the actual time and place an event occurs (Truth). Here is how…

Each of these tents correlates to one of the tee pees we discussed in a previous post. Remember that the peak of the tee pee represents the moment an event actually occurs (i.e. the JFK assassination on the grassy knoll). And the downward sloping sides represent the decrease in certainty (Truth) about what actually happened (i.e. was there a second shooter?). The fact that the airport tent is made up of multiple tee pees correlates to the way we experience life – as a series of events.

As we discussed in a previous post, the closer we look at space-time, the more confusing things get. Is the fabric continuous or discrete? If we keep cutting it up into smaller pieces, how close can we get to the actual moment of the event? Now imagine that this ‘vagueness’ is represented by an imaginary plane that is slicing off these tent tops. What is this plane composed of? In order to answer this we must turn to quantum theory.

Quantum theory mathematically describes the particle/wave behavior of matter at very small scales. A feature of quantum theory is the Heisenberg Uncertainty Principle which states that there is a limit to the precision with which we can locate matter at these very small scales. It says that the more precisely the position of a particle is determined, the less precisely its momentum can be known, and vice versa. In other words, the state of matter is not determined until it is observed. Heisenberg said it best:

The “path” comes into existence only when we observe it.

–Heisenberg, in uncertainty principle paper, 1927

In terms of the Denver Airport roof – the tent comes into existence only when we observe it. Beyond this point the tent exists in an ‘uncertain state’ which is why we cannot see the peaks.

OK – this is a lot to take in so pause for a moment and think about this idea. Here is a summary:

Each tent is the graph of Truth degrading as it moves away from Now in all directions of space and time. There is a plane beyond which we cannot observe these events. This plane is described mathematically by quantum theory. Within this plane matter takes on a wave-particle state which is undetermined until we observe it.

Once you have grasped this concept – the question is begged:

If the observed portion of the tent represents our view of an event, and the quantum mechanical haze obscuring our view of the tent top represents jumbled up space-time, how does the actual event make its way through the haze?

To be continued…

Posted in Essay, Philosophy, Physics, Science, Theology | 2 Comments